The ex list

CBS has a new television series this season called The Ex List. Maybe you have seen it advertised? It stars Elizabeth Reaser (Is the name not familiar? She is the person who played Ava/Rebecca in Grey’s Anatomy.) and the premise is, a psychic tells her that she has already dated her husband-to-be but she needs to figure out who he is within the year OR she will spend the rest of her life alone. But no pressure. Geesh.

So the first episode aired last night and I recorded it. It wasn’t good. It wasn’t bad. I can see each week being very similar…find an ex, rekindle the romance, remember why you broke up in the first place, move on to the next ex. But it caused me to think about my own exes and what I would do if I thought one of them was my destiny.

*shudders*

Maybe that was a little harsh. There is not really a bad guy in the bunch, well, the ones I can remember anyway. I’m a little fuzzy on who all was involved in the years between the ages of 16 and 23. And before you get all judgy, guys lasted about three weeks with me back then AND it was a l-o-n-g time ago. I might be more successful remembering what I had for lunch on August 17, 1984. Frankly, the odds aren’t good in either case.

So of the guys I can remember, I can clearly and definitely state that none of them are my destiny. Well, of course, except Jamie, who I firmly believed I would have ended up with eventually. Unfortunately, his passing three years ago left a lot of never-to-be-answered questions and a gaping hole in my heart. But the psychic didn’t say anything about dead exes so let’s move on. Quickly. (See how I sidestepped that so neatly so as to not start crying on a beautiful day like today? You may be impressed now.)

There is one crush I had/have that has never gone away. We used to work together and became really good friends. We ran into each other a year or so ago and talked for quite a while. However, he is married and has children and therefore nothing will happen there either. Of course, I have fantasized about him one day leaving his wife but if he did, he wouldn’t be the man I know him to be…so that door has closed. Of course, if she were to leave him…and, no, let’s not go there either. I want only the best for him.

So I am pretty certain that I have not yet met the man for me, if there is a man for me. I can’t think of anyone I have already met who sparks any interest. Which is probably why I am obsessed with Vincent D’Onofrio. He’s the only man who makes my heart beat faster anymore.

But that’s okay with me. If I haven’t met him yet, I still have one more ‘first kiss’ on the horizon. And that is something to get excited about.

What about you? If you were destined to be with one of your exes (assuming you are single or just play along if you’re not), do you have any idea who it would be? Or are you pretty certain, like I am, that the past should remain in the past?