On the other side

The clouds have parted and my mood has lifted. Through a serendipitous series of events culminating in a most enlightening conversation Saturday night, my mid-life crisis has abated. My searching is over, my helplessness gone. I feel…new. I am no longer seeking for something outside myself or worrying about what might lie around the corner. It is as though I have been dropped into a new environment where I suddenly know the rules and can see farther than ever before.

This probably does not make sense and I admit to feeling completely inadequate in describing what I am feeling. I spent hours last night trying to put into words what the experience was like but it was not possible. Perhaps, by design, this type of event, this epiphany of sorts, is not meant to be expressed to others, rather everyone must experience it for themselves. Though I had wanted to share it here so that someone else might not struggle as long as I did, my only hope now is that when you are in the same situation that you have someone as gentle and considerate and persistent as I had to lead you through.

Thank you, my dear friend, for being there for me. You listened when I needed to talk, led when I needed to follow, and pushed when I needed pushed. I will be forever grateful.